More like, what aren't I thinking about? Ha!
I've been really meditating on what a huge blessing it is to be his mama. When everything else feels scary, uncomfortable, unknown, or chaotic...I can cling to this blessing.
I need a suggestion! Something fantasy fiction please. I don't have the attention span for anything heavy right now.
Nothing glamorous. I'm currently listening to our big, fat, polar bear of a dog snore at the foot our bed, pausing intermittently with a fart. It's lovely. We just ordered a wide baby gate on amazon that will be here this week, and he will be promptly relocated to the laundry room for his bedtime.
I'm in the market. We just finished the most recent season of Sherlock. I've been wanting to watch Call The Midwife, has anyone seen it?
I've also been watching my little garden continue to flourish. It's been a lot of fun this year having Ben help me water the plants, pick berries off the vines, snap open the peas, and munch carrots straight from the earth. This is what I've been waiting for.
I've been really struggling to adjust to the change of our new home. With that being said, I would never want to be not thankful for the huge blessings that have been bestowed upon us. I am SO thankful for my husband's job, our beautiful home where we will raise our family, our health, our family, and all that we have. I often get overwhelmed with guilt at the huge disparity between humans in the world, feeling selfish and horrible that I get to luxuriously fill up a bathtub with water, when women on the other side of the world are walking miles and miles to find clean water to simply drink. I know that 'hard' is all about perspective. Time will acclimate me to our new 'home' and that dull ache and missing our old 'home' will fade.
I'm also so thankful for my baby daddy. ALL Ben wants to talk about these days is his daddy. He loves his dad so much and I'm so grateful for that relationship. I can't wait to see the special bond between the two of them grow over time.
I could get motivated and unpack some more boxes. I have a former student coming out this week for a couple of hours to play with Ben so hopefully I can get a few things accomplished! I mostly want our clothes to not be in boxes all over our bedroom.
Wishing/hoping the applicant we chose to be our renter at our old place works out. What an exhausting process, but we can now add 'landlord' to our repertoire.
Hmmm, and wishing I could take the money we made at our garage sale last weekend and spend it on something fun! But no, it will cover the costs of getting our house ready to rent (paint, carpet, cleaning), and paying back my parents for their help with some of our early move-in costs to the new house.
My brain feels like mush these days. I'm sure I'm forgetting something.